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[jesse_dylan]

A few years back, I met a lady at her house. She said, before I came, "I hope you don't mind dogs or kids." I said, "I like both!"

It was unfortunate that her two kids looked too much alike for my brain to immediately process that they were two different people. It was internship-related, and I was SO NERVOUS, so when one of the girls let me in, I tried my best to be friendly, but I was just so damn scared.

Once I was in, that girl left. Later, another girl came out, and waved at me, and I thought it was the same girl. I was so confused that I did not wave back. I think I smiled friendily, though.

Odd to think that is one of my regrets in life, that I snubbed a young girl because I thought she was her sister (to this day, I have no idea which let me in and which waved at me, although I'd be able to tell them apart now).

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[jesse_dylan]

Oh, that's so sad about Jeremy! It sounds like he had a fine time at least, though!

I don't think your atheist comment is so bad. That's funny! Are you worried about it because it might be offensive to atheists, or because it might be offensive to non-atheists? :P Both? I'm constantly saying weird things. I have been called racist for offending white people. I can live with that. (I am white, if you couldn't tell, and I sort of think it's part of my job to offend other white people.) Things do still always bug me, though, no matter how hard I try to act tough and like I don't care. And what bugs me the most is the weird stuff I don't do on purpose. It's hard to be an introvert in an extroverted world. I sometimes try to say something, ANYTHING, figuring it's better than nothing, but then sometimes what I say is just so stupid. On the other hand, I am finding times/places where silence truly is appropriate and preferable, and that's great and seems to be a talent the extroverts will never have.

[rocket_to_neptune]

Yeah, sometimes I think about Jeremy and want to cry. I can't believe I did that. I'm glad he didn't know why we ran from him, but still. It's a major regret for me. Jeremy wasn't at the daycare long (I think his family moved), but after he left, it hit me what a terrible person I had been. I wasn't out and out awful to him, but I wasn't nice either. T

Haha. I'm an atheist, and I do think I'm breaking stereotypes by not "raping and pillaging" actually, because I'm some Christians expect that sort of thing out of us, but it just flew out of my mouth without any thought. We were having a workshop on diversity, so I wanted to make a mature, thoughtful comment in front of the whole staff about how I'm breaking stereotypes about atheists in my daily life. Instead I said I'm not "raping and pillaging" in front of the associate directors and whatnot.

And yes! I do that "search for anything to say that is semi-related to the current topic" thing and often time it comes out weird. Like the time the library dean and the associate director were talking about a sink hole down town, so I mentioned a sink hole in the backyard of this house that belonged to a junkie friend of my mother's. My mom was her drug dealer--one of her drug dealers, and we'd go to her house periodically. I liked to stare down into the sink hole. In any case, a dead body was found in their house at one point. It had been in the house with the woman's 5 kids over the weekend. I proceeded to speculate on why they didn't toss the body into the sink hole. The dean and associate director didn't say anything in response.

[jesse_dylan]

HAHAHAHA That is the thing--we are out-extroverting the extroverts. When you're an introvert, by necessity, you get so good at coming up with (albeit weird) things to say that sometimes people have no replies. Hey, see how it feels? I like it when people say weird things, but I guess I would.

Well, I am neither an atheist nor a Christian (how many people have I offended already), but it does seem to me like typically it has been the Christians doing the raping and pillaging. But I guess an atheist saying that might not break down stereotypes about atheists. That's why it's left to me to say these weird things. I was going to ramble on, but maybe for once I'll leave without saying more weird stuff :P