Hello to my new journal
May. 1st, 2017 01:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jesse_dylanThis is pretty barebones at the moment--no friends, no decent profile. I just wanted to say hello to my new journal.
I spent a long time on Livejournal. I hadn't written since 2014, then wrote one entry in 2016, on April 2. Oddly enough, almost exactly a year later, April 2, 2017, I wrote again, to say that two weeks prior, the girl I'd met on Livejournal 6+ years ago, that I thought was the love of my life, had left me.
Because of that, and because Livejournal has changed, and because pretty much everyone had left, I sort of needed to leave, too. I had put it off for years. Now I'm here. Entries before this one have been brought in from my Livejournal (all my 2017 entries except the first of 2017 that I mention in the previous paragraph).
I know she could find me here, that I'm taking a risk leaving this unlocked, but I hope she doesn't, and I hope that if she does, she respects my need to be left to heal, that she doesn't read and doesn't reply, and if she does read, that it does not hurt or influence her in any way. I just don't want to bother locking things. It's too much hassle. And since I have no friends, it would mean no one could read anything.
Maybe I'll change my mind.
I spent a long time on Livejournal. I hadn't written since 2014, then wrote one entry in 2016, on April 2. Oddly enough, almost exactly a year later, April 2, 2017, I wrote again, to say that two weeks prior, the girl I'd met on Livejournal 6+ years ago, that I thought was the love of my life, had left me.
Because of that, and because Livejournal has changed, and because pretty much everyone had left, I sort of needed to leave, too. I had put it off for years. Now I'm here. Entries before this one have been brought in from my Livejournal (all my 2017 entries except the first of 2017 that I mention in the previous paragraph).
I know she could find me here, that I'm taking a risk leaving this unlocked, but I hope she doesn't, and I hope that if she does, she respects my need to be left to heal, that she doesn't read and doesn't reply, and if she does read, that it does not hurt or influence her in any way. I just don't want to bother locking things. It's too much hassle. And since I have no friends, it would mean no one could read anything.
Maybe I'll change my mind.