I can't keep up.

[jesse_dylan]

Man. I can't even seem to write entries anymore, much less read other people's. Kind of sucks. Why don't I have time for anything? I feel as though I'm always teetering on a fencepost, always chasing a carrot, always thinking if I can just make it a little longer, things will be different, but how long have I felt that way? 6 years? 7? Longer? I feel like I didn't use to be like this, but how would I even know?

Comments

[ophelia11]

Just come on to read your journals after a while and this is exactly how I feel. I feel like maybe once I didn't feel like this, but I don't even know anymore.

[jesse_dylan]

How can one know for sure? I think maybe when I feel less like I'm stretched so thin, I have more capacity to communicate, but now I feel like there is just not enough time for everything, ever. It's like only being able to wear one pair of shoes per day and having too many shoes and trying to make time to wear them all in one day and failing.