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My left foot, mostly on the left side, is absolutely, completely killing me. It hurt a little yesterday. It was worse this morning. I had a bike ride, and it's been unbearable since.
What is it? What the heck did I do? I'm worried it's from bike riding. I hope not. If it were, wouldn't I have it on both sides?
On Monday, I went down to Fort Stevenson to hike. It was okay. It was kind of disappointing. It's basically a campground that has had hiking trails added. Did I somehow injure myself and not notice? Did I get bit by something and not notice?
I had planned, today or tomorrow, to go on another lark, overnight to the east side of the state and check out the hiking at Fort Ransom, Sheyenne State Forest, and Sheyenne National Grassland. I did not today and will not tomorrow. Maybe I still could on Friday and come back Saturday, but my foot seriously hurts. Bad.
I did not go to Glacier National Park. My original plan was to go there Monday and come home Friday, if I recall. (I can't even remember my original plan.) However, it was just too painful for me, planning, getting anxious, I am so used to having Mary with me on these big National Park and hiking excursions, but I will never have her with me again. The sorrow was more than I could handle, not to mention it was a really long drive, and I'd have been hiking in a place with bears all by myself. My parents started getting all anxious and weird about it (gee, I wonder why I'm such an anxious adult), and I gave up on it the night before.
So, I decided on baby steps instead, thus the short trip to Ft Stevenson (where I did, in fact, feel excruciatingly, painfully sad, thinking about her), and thus the longer overnight trip. Which didn't happen.
I feel like I have kind of failed on this vacation. It's not my fault that the majority of my vacation was taken up by family. The foot is not really my fault either. I have no idea how I even did it. And soon, I'll be going back to work, and my opportunities to get away and be in the wilderness will be gone. Additionally, I don't know if I'll even be able to continue my wellness activities of biking to/from work and walking over lunch due to the foot.
What is it? What the heck did I do? I'm worried it's from bike riding. I hope not. If it were, wouldn't I have it on both sides?
On Monday, I went down to Fort Stevenson to hike. It was okay. It was kind of disappointing. It's basically a campground that has had hiking trails added. Did I somehow injure myself and not notice? Did I get bit by something and not notice?
I had planned, today or tomorrow, to go on another lark, overnight to the east side of the state and check out the hiking at Fort Ransom, Sheyenne State Forest, and Sheyenne National Grassland. I did not today and will not tomorrow. Maybe I still could on Friday and come back Saturday, but my foot seriously hurts. Bad.
I did not go to Glacier National Park. My original plan was to go there Monday and come home Friday, if I recall. (I can't even remember my original plan.) However, it was just too painful for me, planning, getting anxious, I am so used to having Mary with me on these big National Park and hiking excursions, but I will never have her with me again. The sorrow was more than I could handle, not to mention it was a really long drive, and I'd have been hiking in a place with bears all by myself. My parents started getting all anxious and weird about it (gee, I wonder why I'm such an anxious adult), and I gave up on it the night before.
So, I decided on baby steps instead, thus the short trip to Ft Stevenson (where I did, in fact, feel excruciatingly, painfully sad, thinking about her), and thus the longer overnight trip. Which didn't happen.
I feel like I have kind of failed on this vacation. It's not my fault that the majority of my vacation was taken up by family. The foot is not really my fault either. I have no idea how I even did it. And soon, I'll be going back to work, and my opportunities to get away and be in the wilderness will be gone. Additionally, I don't know if I'll even be able to continue my wellness activities of biking to/from work and walking over lunch due to the foot.